This go around I am all about making healthy and sustainable choices. I know cutting my carbs to 20 would be a quick way to shed some of those pounds (and inches!). But I have no deadlines looming, I just want to be healthy. So, today I'm lowering my salt. I love salt. I really do, it's one of those condiments that I sneak onto food and don't have to count. I know I should but I count it like splenda, a no calorie add on. Well, after eating all of those frozen meals and taking a good hard look at my salt content. I'm cutting back. No salt on my hard boiled egg, I even forgot to add pepper, it tasted good. I will continue to try to avoid adding salt (unless something REALLY needs it) and that is my healthy change for today.
Also, I've been thinking about what it would be like to be at my goal weight. I've been overweight since I was 7. I can see the pictures of a skinny me, but I have no recollection. I don't actually know what to think about what I will look like. I think that was part (a small part) of my problem last time around. I had no roadmap of how to act as a skinny person, and how I would feel. I mean delighted of course, not to have to worry about fat rolls. But I remember one day thinking, wow, if we get married in 2010 I will totally be at my goal weight long before then. Then what would I do?
I realize now that there probably will never be an end. I am me. I will always have to think about making good food choices. It's not like I'm taking off the freshman 15, this is the lifetime 100. This will always be something for me. But, that's ok it means I will have to be intentional with how I feed our kids, that we'll be sure to instill in them good eating because it isn't an easy thing. And that is the best gift we could give our kids.
If you've been big all of your life, what do you think about being skinny for the first time? Is it a little scary to you too?
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I have been some form of overweight since my freshman year in high school. In elementary school I was SKINNY, my Mom called me an elf because I was tiny. In middle school I shot up to 5'8 and weighed in at about 160 and thought I was a complete fatty (now my goal weight lol), by 9th grade I was up to 185, and it just kept going up after that. I have no idea what it will feel like to be thin/healthy. I'm not even sure I can picture myself that way yet. I wish I could though :)
Great post. Im scared! I dont know the skinny person inside of me. Ive never met her! I was about 10 when I got fat. I honestly blame my genetics- I look like all of the "pear" shaped woman on my Dad's side of the family. But the pizza adn pasta all my life didnt help me out! :)
Its very odd when you walk past a mirror and start to see that skinnier you. I stare- unable to imagine myself thinner, but looking forward to meeting that inner skinny bitch! hehe
:) tj
I love salt too. It's like, my favorite thing ever. I over salt everything. Delicious! :-)
And...
I honestly can't even imagine being thinner. I can't picture it, I can't envision what I'd look like, or feel like, or what being "normal" would be like.
So yes, that is scary. It's like walking in the dark.
I know what you mean, it has been so long since I wasn't overweight, I just can't imagine it either. Part of me is scared that I won't like it somehow, that I will look and feel old and a mess, lol!
I am sure it will be fabulous though, easier to fit nice clothes, easier to move, normality... heck, lets just do it and find out!
I have to say, salt is the ONLY bad for me thing I don't really like! Why couldn't I not like something like, I don't know, ICE CREAM! :-) Good luck on cutting back!
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I have always been a chubby kid with a big appetite, and you're right, EVEN IF we do one day reach our goal weight, this will be a lifetime battle.
There is no such thing as "happily ever after".. not that I am at my goal or anything :>
I was a slender child, a slender/curvy early teen who was told she was going to get fat...and fat I got!
I do look back at some pictures, up to the point of about 16 yrs old, where my body looked healthy. Other pictures I look at, after 16 yrs old, and I wonder what the hell happened.
So, even though I have pictures of a slender and healthy me, I still can't picture myself that way because I feel like a different person.
Wow, you guys are AWESOME readers. Thanks so much for your great comments!
Im like you, i have no freaking idea what i will look like. Im taller than a lot of girls out there so 175(my goal weight) will look pretty darn good I hope.
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